Why do I hurt myself?
I’m always bleeding somewhere, even if you don’t see it
I hide the pain
I hide my feelings
I hide everything in my heart
Because I’m afraid to lose it
I’m afraid to lose you
But all of our fears come true eventually
And now I fear myself
I’m over the thought of you
I’m over the withdrawals called late night calls
I’m over you
At least, I would like to think that
‘Cause here I am
Alone at school
Alone at work
Alone in life
But I lie here alone
Staining my white shirt
Red as the roses I bought
The night I asked you to dance
Only to find you with my friend
Happy without me
I was crushed
I am crushed
The pain is unbearable
My nonexistent pride destroyed
I never realized I could be so apathetic towards life
My fears toward life are revolting
But I fear bridges now
As well as knives
Not because I’m afraid of death
But because I don’t want to hurt a friend
A single friend
That’s all I have left
My shattered pride
My drained body
My best and only friend
That’s all I have left
Loverboy’s Blog 
I know what that’s like. Oh my gosh. Like the world around you is a sudden accomplice to a single dangerous deed.
But just as strong as sorrow pulls a person towards death, life pulls a person towards living. We’re meant to live. The present never stays the same.
Sometimes when we lose the biggest parts of ourselves, it’s hard to believe there’s anything worth it left.
But there’s value in even the smallest, most insignificant attribute.
And you have a life to live. Things to write. Comments to read. You gave a beautiful person inside of you. You have all of our support here. You CAN do this. You’ll catch yourself saying otherwise on an automatic. But I promise that things will get better. They always do.
I’m glad you have a good friend who stays by you. Hold on tight. 🤍
It’s okay to be afraid.
“I’m always bleeding somewhere, even if you don’t see it” #stolen. You’re giving us all a voice. Thank you.
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Thank you so much for your time and consideration!!! I appreciate your determination and everything you’ve done for this blog! I’ve been trying and I will continue to try!
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Of course!!! Wouldn’t have it any other way. 😉👌 I’ll be stickin’ around.
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this is so hard to read because i feel your pain and it’s so real. it really really hurts when the two people you care about don’t need you anymore. but somewhere there’s someone who’ll meet you and realize that they can’t live without you. you’re amazing and i know things are hard right now but i believe in you and your heart. you got this!!!
i love how you put things into words
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Thank you for always being here and reading my posts! I appreciate it a lot more than you know, and I’m glad that there’s someone to support me!
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